The Week Leading Up....Day 20-24

Well.....Not much to talk about. It's been a week that has brought more thoughts and I'm ready for it to be Wednesday 5/9/12. That's the day it will come down to a BFP or BFN. (+/-). I can't believe it though. Throughout the week it's of course crossed my mind but I haven't been as stressed as I thought I would be.

I honestly thought that these would be the hardest 10+ days of our lives.

My husband has been fantastic. We were talking last night about how we wanted to find out. He said that he would be fine if I found out first and then I could let him know when I came home. I don't know how I feel about this. I'm sure I'll be nipping at the bit by Wednesday, but I would like us both to know together. We shall see.

I did text Roberta this morning and said "I'm so glad that it's you and not me, because if it was me, I would have tested over a 1000 times by now." She just laughed and said, I'll test on Wednesday :)

I've started looking at the adoption agency again. I know that probably sounds crazy to some of you, but I really want to make sure that we have a back up plan. Not is it at all that I don't want this to work, but I know myself. As long as I have something else to focus on, I'll be OK. Maybe we will try IVF again later one, but for right now, I'm just now feeling like myself.

Angel Adoption-

This is the adoption agency that we will hopefully work with if this process leads us there.

I hope and pray that later on in life,

when it's time to add to our family, we use them, just not right now.

I had a weird dream on Tuesdsay that both Roberta and I got pregnant this cycle. Now that was something I was a bit scared and overwhelmed when I woke up, then realized it was just dream. Thank goodness! Low a behold after that dream, mother nature decided to rear her ugly head and come visit. It was the worst one I've ever had in my life. The cramps were so horrible that I couldn't NOT sleep on my heating pad and could bearly walk. BUT...I made it through work and was able to have a nice and relaxing weekend with 2 of our neighbors. We shopped and dined and had some much needed adult beverages. It was much needed and I had a fabulous time.

Back to work today.....I can't believe it's almost here. I feel like I should be counting down the hours, but all I want to do, is make it through them and have good news. That's all I'm praying for and we would appreciate it if you would do that for us. God has been keeping me a peace throughout this process and I hope he continues it. I know that it's because of all of you that he's hearing your prayers for Derek, I and hopefully our growing family.

XOXO