Breakdown

This week has been so nice at work. Two of our doctors are on vacation, therefore we've only had clinic in the mornings. Always nice to have a slow week every once in awhile. so I got to take the afternoon off yesterday!

I went ahead and met with another adoption attourney to get more information about the process as well as to get our name out there. I had actually got her name from one of my junior league friends that adopted this year. She's so nice and easy to talk to, very informative! We got quite a bit of information and I was quite excited. She told me "I could find you a birth mom tomorrow if you asked me to" this put a smile on my face....your probably asking why is this post is named breakdown?!

Well.....

She could certainly find us a birth mom tomorrow, but we would have to have ~$20,000 available that same day. I don't know about you, but we don't have this laying around. I wish we did! So after Derek and I talked last night, we figured that it will take us about 2 years to save a good chunk of this and still be comfortable in bring a baby home.

I think I had nightmares about that number. We are giving a child a home, where they wouldn't be taken care of, and paying 20K.....REALLY?? Don't get me wrong, I understand it costs money, everything does! But WOW!!!

I broke down after our conversation...Derek said what would you want to do if we had half saved in 9-12 months, I looked at him and said " All I want is a baby" I know he understands this, he wants it just as bad as I do, but he is the realistic one of us. If I had my choice, I would have signed up yesterday at her office!

So... Here we go! Money saving begins...I could go play the lottery I guess HA

So what I ask of you all that read this, If you know of anyone that is needing to adopt there infant, please forward them my email. This is the only thing that could make this process somewhat affordable for us.

I understand that this is all in Gods plan, but right now, I just don't agree!

XOXO